Saturday, October 30, 2010

A Separate Peace

I'm on a hot book streak.  I just finished A Separate Peace, another recommendation from Jessica.  Girfriend's got taste.  I was a little worried that whatever I read after The Particular Sadness of Lemon Cake would be a disappointment, but I was wrong.

I tend to get a little irritated by books that are written by men and are solely about men, but there are definite exceptions and this is one of them.  There are so many struggles going on in this book.  Though the heroes of this novel inhabit a posh New England prep school shrouded in comfort and safety, they are plagued by personal demons, all except Phineas, that is.

Phineas is the proverbial golden boy.  He's a gifted athlete.  He's handsome.  He's everyone's friend, and he sees the world through rose-colored glasses.  His best friend Gene is talented in his own right.  He's an excellent student and an accomplished athlete.  But he always seems to be in Phineas' shadow.

As these boys are maturing, World War II is being waged and former classmates are being shipped overseas to fight, but the boys at Devon are free to enjoy their last days of freedom and peace before being drafted themselves.  The threat looming before them affects them all in strange ways.

Gene in particular harbors a competitive streak that turns out to be deadly.  His relationship with Phineas is compromised and Gene is forced to examine an instinct he'd rather forget.  Even under the guise of peace at home, these boys are profoundly affected by the war and grow up far more quickly than any young man should.  Though it was written over fifty years ago, the novel is as timely as ever.  It's haunting and beautiful and tragic and poetic.  I'll be on the lookout for more Knowles material and let you know what I come up with.

A Separate Peace

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Mind Bender

I just finished a huge new favorite last night.  I wanted to take a little time before posting about it because I wanted to savor it and mull it over for awhile.  I read Aimee Bender's The Girl in the Flammable Skirt years ago and was instantly smitten with her writing.  That collection has a featured spot on my shelf.  I tend to be very generous with books, but I never loan this one out.  It's filled with precious morsels.

There's something so peculiar about Bender's style of writing.  She sees things in such a pleasantly bizarre way.  It seems like she writes in technicolor somehow.  I feel like I'm eating her words instead of reading them, and they're delicious.  Don't ask me why I didn't read her next two works, An Invisible Sign of My Own and Willful Creatures.  I'll be buying them the minute I finish this post.  I guess I sort of lost track of her.  But when I saw The Particular Sadness of Lemon Cake on the shelf the other day, I knew I'd hit the jackpot.

How much do you love this premise: the lead character, Rose, discovers on her ninth birthday that she can taste the emotions of the people who cook for her.  Her mother bakes her a lemon flavored birthday cake that looks incredible, but when she tastes it, she feels sad and hollow and horribly lonesome.  She quickly realizes that these emotions stem from the baker, not herself, and she embarks on a lifelong experiment of sampling food from all sorts of makers.  She desperately wants to get to the bottom of why she has this strange affinity for tuning into people's feelings through the dishes they cook.  She's often so overcome by the emotions in the food she eats that she winds up gorging on junk food.  When the food is processed mechanically, Rose can taste less of the overpowering human sentiment attached to it.

In his book Anger: Wisdom for Cooling the Flames, Thich Nhat Hanh writes about how when you eat the meat of an animal who t is terrorized by his own slaughter, you are essentially eating that animal's fear.  He also says that you mustn't ever cook food when you are angry or upset, because you will unwittingly pass these emotions on to the people you're trying to nourish.  I think of that every time I cook or eat now.

Bender illustrates this theory with so much depth and creativity.  She gives Rose this gift that is sometimes unbearable, but every now and then, she stumbles upon a meal cooked with such grace and love and joy that she is overcome.  Ultimately, she learns to embrace her gift and to put it to good use, but at a great cost to her emotionally and psychologically.

She discovers later in life that she comes from a long line of relatives who possess such wondrous gifts.  Each has struggled with his or her odd talents, and each has tasted the rewards reaped by them.  Sometimes you have to have almost superhuman courage to embrace your gift or to use it to its fullest potential.  Sometimes a blessing feels more like a curse, but sometimes, with a little imagination, you can make the most out of what you're dealt.

I'm not sure why this book resonated so much with me, but I can't seem to stop thinking about it.  Have you ever suspected you had a great talent but were too afraid to use it, or too scared to let it show?  Did you ever want to do something so badly, but you were afraid people might judge you for it?  Do you ever think about a different path you might have taken if you'd truly followed your heart?  It may well be frightening to follow a dream that means the world to you.  It would be so devastating if it didn't work out.  But what if you never take the risk?  What if you miss your calling because you're too afraid to investigate it?  Is it better to be cautious or bold?  I'd rather take the risk.

The Girl in the Flammable Skirt: StoriesWillful CreaturesAn Invisible Sign of My Own: A NovelThe Particular Sadness of Lemon Cake: A NovelAnger: Wisdom for Cooling the Flames

Monday, October 25, 2010

You Say It's Your Birthday....

So this weekend I started reading Palace Walk and though I'm only a hundred pages in, I'm loving it.  It's a book that makes me reflect on my own life and how grateful I am for things that so many people take for granted.  For starters, I'm grateful that I'm not the wife of a tyrannical dictator like the lead character in Palace Walk.  I'm grateful that I don't need permission to leave my home and that I can do so unattended.  I'm grateful that I've been allowed to have a proper education and can continue it for as long as I choose.  I'm grateful that I'm entitled to an education, and a career, and the choice to marry whomever I choose.  I'm grateful that I don't have to be a prisoner in my own home, as the wife and daughters of the cruel patriarch of this novel are.  I'm grateful for my right to vote, speak freely and to express myself as I see fit.

There's more:  today is my 37th birthday and I'm so grateful to be here.  I'm grateful for my family.  I'm grateful for my dog, Walter.  He was a gift for my 30th birthday.  Best gift ever.  I'm grateful for my health, grateful for my community, grateful for my friends and grateful for the joys of living in this amazing city.  

I walked the Brooklyn Bridge this morning as a treat to myself and listened to my favorite music and just felt so incredibly fortunate.  All of the tourists were snapping pictures of one another to take their memories of New York home to wherever home is for them, but I get to live here, all year round.  It's such a pleasure.  

Most of all, I'm grateful for my daughter.  She's the best thing that's ever happened to me.  I'm grateful to live in a country where she'll have the opportunity to choose whatever lifestyle she wants, and no one will have the power to thwart her dreams.  I hope to teach her to never take any of this for granted.  I'll try to teach myself the same thing.  A very happy birthday to me.

Palace Walk: Cairo Trilogy (1)